It never should have come to this

I’m the only one there for me at night when the tears endlessly come
Keeping it a secret and hiding every trace of

myself on the outside,
To kill the hurt within.

Wounds on the outside eventually heal.

It’s the wounds on the inside that seem to kill.

I know what it’s like to want to die. How it hurts to smile. How you try to fit but you can’t. How you hurt yourself on the outside to try to kill the thing on inside

This will all fall down
Like everything else that was
This too shall pass
And all of the words we said, we can’t take back.

Everybody thinks I’m happy
They don’t know and I can’t tell them what’s really going on
I keep waiting for it to get better on its own

I wish I could walk up to everybody who went through the same thing as I did
I’d just tell them
It’s not your fault

People want to believe you’re okay
So it’s easy to pretend you’re okay

I don’t want advice
I just want to talk to someone who gets it

Tell me you don’t pull the blade across you skin and pray you have the courage to press down. That you have the strength to keep going, and the life to keep living.

I became trapped in a world of my own, suffering the hurt and pain in silence.

People ask me if I believe in forever
and I can’t help but sit back and laugh
because with the way my life is going,
I don’t even believe in tomorrow


you don’t know what it feels like to stare out your window & count the headlights.


She hides the scars

Learn to love the pain i feel. 

When the wind starts whispering a lonesome lullaby, it helps to think were sleeping under the same big sky.

Give me a reason worth fighting For. Don’t let me break down and cry, give me something to look forward to. Anything to keep me alive



People Hate Because


People hate you because you have something that they don’t. Whether is it your new shoes, new house, new friend, or your life in general, you possess something they don’t  and that upsets them. Because they realize that life can be unfair, and that some people can have things or do things in life that others can’t. Perhaps they even desire what you have but don’t quite know how they themselves can achieve those things. When haters can’t figure why they lack the things they lack, or how they can get the things they lack, they become very angry individuals. To help themselves cope with this sense of frustration, they hate. This is how they deal with their feelings of inadequacy and inferiority after comparing themselves with others by putting it on you.

People hate you because they think you don’t deserve it. They look at your fame, your popularity, your friends, your career, and think that you are not worthy of these things, because they are only looking at things at surface level. They don’t care about the hard work you had put in behind the scenes. Your sacrifices, your worries, your fears and the pains you’d gone through. Because they are superficial like that. People hate you because they don’t want to lose to you. They see life as some kind of competition, who’s more popular, who’s richer, who has more friends, who has more dates, who has the better job and blablabla.. and they want to win. Their eagerness to do better than you is not based on their zeal towards life, but stems from their fear of losing to you and being seen as failure in their own eyes. They sort of made you their goal, and the further the distance between you and them, the more they hate. That’s why your haters never want to hear that you are doing well in anything. Sometimes you could feel that they care more about you and the things you do than you care about yourself, and they care about what other people think of you more than you actually do.

People hate you because they have nothing better to do in life and we should take pity on them, really. Because for them, besides stalking other people’s Facebook and Twitter pages, and posting hateful comments they really don’t have much else to spend their time and energy on. The lowest of them stoop to writing long hate mails. All these activities give them that momentary sense of purpose and achievement in life. Perhaps your haters don’t even really dislike you that much. They just like hating on other people. Hating has sort of become a lifestyle for them. We can only wish them the best.

People hate you because their life just ain’t as great and exciting as yours. And they hate you because they need attention. What haters are most afraid of is silence. They feel their existence when they know that you heard their voice. So don’t talk back or argue with them. They would only get more excited. Don’t try to reason with them. Don’t. Even. They won’t bother listening. They just need your response to know that someone actually cares about what they think or what they have to say. They hate you because they such a bigots. It’s not you. It’s them. No matter, they will always think of themselves as the better person compared to you. They would use your past against you, judge and criticize you using their own morals and values, and dismiss any good that you do. They don’t feel the need for humility when talking to you because they believe that they will always be (more) right. But we all know that such beings do make the biggest hypocrites around. They are jealous people. They curse and wish for your downfall because they want you to lose the things you have that they don’t. They see life as a zero-sum game. They think, perhaps if you lose a couple of friends/fans, they could gain some themselves. And if they can’t have the things you have, they rather you not have them at all as well. They are unhappy with some things in their own life and they try to make someone else unhappy too by being the nuisance that they are. They want to pull you down to their level of unhappiness. They want you to be disturbed and not have peace. If they can’t enjoy their life, they make sure you can’t enjoy yours too. They need to put someone down to feel good about themselves because they are, in general, just losers but losers who need much love.

Meet me somewhere around the world. I’ll wait for you. We will travel all over the world together. Let’s just go and never come back for awhile.

As I look back on my life, I realize that every time I thought I was being rejected from something good, I was actually being re-directed to something better.

There’s a guy out there who’s going to be really happy that you didn’t get back together with your crappy ex boyfriend.

Have An Adventure

ImageI want to travel away from home. Hop on a plane and go somewhere far. I want to live there and work there. I want to meet people all over the world and I want to see new places. I want to travel from place to place and not have a home. Then once I find the place that’s best, I will start my home there. I’ve been to eight states, which I think is pretty good. I want to be in at least ten different countries before I die. I want to go to Italy, Greece, United States, Australia, Spain, France, Netherlands, Ireland, United Kingdom and Switzerland. I would love to go with my mom and my best friend. I really want to travel the world. One day, when this dream of mine comes true, it going to be so exciting and fun. I want to touch every ocean, experience every culture, climb every mountain, and see the world in its fullest. Young people, travel as far as you can go. Have your mind blown, eat interesting food. Get a backpack and go. Have an adventure. The world is waiting for you.

Real travel changes us. Now places and new experiences reveal new ways of looking at the world.

Don’t Trust people whose feelings change with time. Trust people whose feelings remain the same, even when the time changes.

Don’t Trust..

People & Circumstances Change


I don’t understand how much one person can change in such a short period of time. Your relationship with them just isn’t the same as it was before, you don’t speak to them as often, you don’t tell them all the things you used to, you don’t see them as much as you’d like to anymore, it’s really weird. Seeing people change isn’t what hurts. What really hurts is remembering how they used to be. I don’t even know some of you anymore, you’re just a stranger now. I know that people change, I just never thought out of everyone, you would be the one to make me cry at night. I feel like life changes things so fast. Everything happens for a reason. People change so you can learn to let go. I’ve learned a lot this year. I learned that things don’t always turn out the way you planned, or the way you think they should.And I’ve learned there’s a things that go wrong that don’t always get fixed or get put back together the way they were before. I’ve learned that some broken things stay broken, and I’ve learned that you can get through bad times and keep looking for better ones, as long as you have people who love you.

Maybe the way i think about a person isn’t the way they actually are.